Back~!

I'm back~! Even though its not a very big deal.. haha.. but the trip was a bomb~! crazy fun and i look like charcoal now.. muahaha.. cant believe all that sunblock and nivea cream didnt help.. in the end i still turned black.. diaoz.. now i look like how i was in primary school.. haiz..

Day 1 started out with a 10 hr bus journey.. we had to wait at the travel agency for about 30 mins too for the bus to arrive.. diaoz.. haha.. and the bus journey was like a frozen igloo lah.. but the seats were rather comfortable so yeah i didnt mind.. just switched on my IPOD and slept like a log.. until we reached the Petronas station for some diesel and guess what? we saw the sunrise there.. beautiful.. but then the bus driver got lost along the way to Merang Jetty.. and we had to stop to ask for directions.. diaoz.. shouldnt he had drove along this road for like umpteen times already? jeez.. what a held out..

in the end, we were the last passengers to reach the jetty for the ferry to Pulau Redang.. imagine a whole ferry of passengers waiting for u.. haha.. but i guess we didnt felt the worst cos there was an ang moh couple that sat the same bus with us and in the end they realised that our bus was going to Pulau Redang while their original destination was to go to Pontian.. oops.. wrong bus folks! 10 hours of bus ride for nth.. the ferry ride took long enuff.. slept for almost half the journey and upon reaching the island, we were ushered into a waiting hall where we were given a briefing on what activities to do on the island.. sounds like outward bound right? haha.. but it was quite informational.. then we boarded a tram which then took us to the main reception where we were greeted with a complimentary welcome drink.. haha.. registered and got all the meal vouchers then went to our room.. it was jus beside the swimming pool even though we couldnt see it.. haha..

our room had like 1 Queen size bed and 2 single beds.. and there were oni 3 girls in the room.. haha.. Sharyn took the Queen while Aisyah and I took the singles.. Wee Jun and Anthony's room had 4 single beds lah.. haha.. and they oni had 2 of them.. and the TV had oni 6 channels.. Channel 1 was a video of the resort and its facilities and Channel 2 was airing Summer Momo Tea 24 hrs a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year without fail.. Wee Jun was going crazy over that channel cos he got to see his Sammi Cheng.. haha.. the other 4 channels were local channels.. dropped the stuff off then went to the restaurant for lunch.. lots of stuff to take cos it was buffet.. and u could admire the view as u ate lah.. haha.. then went walking around the island for a while before going swimming in the gorgeous swimming pool.. ordered some crappy mocktail at the poolside bar and we paid RM8 for it.. diaoz.. haha..

dinner was buffet again.. all our meals were buffet since there was practically oni one place that u could use the meal voucher which was the buffet restaurant.. BBQ food for dinner plus lots of other stuff.. cool.. went to the bar by the beach for a drink after that and chatted away before going back to the room to watch CSI and Lost on the local channels.. haha.. in the afternoon we were even watching Ah Cheng and Tong Xin Yuan.. haha.. woke up quite early the next day to register for the snorkelling trip.. first one departs at 930am to Marine Park and we had to pay RM25 for the equipment and a conservation fee.. so faster gorged some breakfast down and chiong to the jetty for some briefing and then we boarded the ferry for a 15 mins trip.. spectacular snorkelling trip.. bright corals and so many fishes around and even a ship wreck to explore.. plus there were photographers too to help us take photos underwater.. cool.. haha.. another snorkelling trip at 3pm to the wild open sea.. Wee Jun didnt join us cos he saw a baby shark at the marine park and kinda traumatised by it.. could understand that cos i would be too if i did saw the shark.. natural instincts i guess..

the boat trip to the deep sea was 30 mins long.. but it was worth it.. all the instructors did drive the boat to the middle of the sea then dropped a ladder down and we were to climb down and start snorkelling around.. no limits except that we couldnt go up the beach cos the turtles were laying eggs there.. even though the view in the sea was not as clear as the marine park but the stuff to see was better.. corals larger than me and NEMO and DORY!! haha.. cool right? even took a pic with the sea cucumber.. went back to the resort to bathe and change and shun bian watch abit of TV while waiting for Wee Jun and Anthony to finish their archery.. dinner was great as usual and becos it was our last night there, we went walking around for a while and went to purchase the snorkelling photos too.. haha..

by that time we were all pretty much badly sun burned to the max.. haha.. and super tired too so faster packed the stuff and slept.. i was asleep by 10pm.. haha.. woke up around 7am to pack and eat breakfast.. was kinda late in the checking out so we had to eat in a hurry and we were even the last passengers to board the ferry.. normal passengers had to walk to the jetty but since we were the last few, the resort staff drove us there in the tram.. haha.. and the ferry left the moment we boarded.. that goes to show how late we were.. haha.. the journey back seemed shorter than when we arrived.. hmmm.. back at the jetty, we boarded an 18 seater bus with TVs in front of us.. but only Sharyn's one was working so i was pretty much asleep during the journey with my IPOD as usual.. stopped halfway for lunch at some coffeeshop.. ordered 4 dishes, rice and some drink all for RM66.. cheap eh? haha.. stopped over at Yong Peng for some shopping before long drive back.. ETD was actually 11pm but i reached home at 930pm.. haha..

woke up this morning and watched Midnight Sun again.. cried once again during the sad moments then chiong-ed A Song to The Sun.. up to episode 7 now.. just 3 more episodes to go.. and i cried like mad again.. haha.. and continued One Litre of Tears too.. i'm officially siaoz.. haha.. and Yui's 2nd album is coming out on April 7.. think i'll probably be buying it since i kinda like her first album.. haha..

Will he hate me? I actually want him to hate me. Because I will never be able to hate him. I have always known better. But after falling in love with him, I became weaker. And I fear, I won't be able to see him again. This is the first time I feel that I'm not ready to die yet. The deeper I fall for him, the weaker I get. I want to live. It should be fine, that he knows everything right?

That day, was the first time that I faced my destiny. I have to face my future. I have to start letting go. My singing and you.

- Quote by Kaoru Amane from Taiyou No Uta after Kouji finds out about her illness.